By Ann Dawson
Sussex, England, UK
warm and gentle
chasing the shadows
from the night
glimpses of softness
darting to and fro
across the walls,
to spread their glow.
its gleaming guile,
the shadows revile.
diminish its height,
the flame and taper
continue their fight.
Throwing out flashes
of dancing rays,
as cowering darkness
around it plays.
Flame of life
pure and clean,
Monkfish has great beauty
though appearance be not its charms,
A King amongst the waters deep
swims silently from all harm.
to all, whose eyes are closed
to the sheer beauty of his form.
Open the vision of your mind and see
this wonderous creature transform.
open your eyes and see deeper,
beyond this outer shell
to the exquisite being that lies within,
on first impressions not to dwell.
in Nature has beauty,
though some may disagree,
For all is created to perfection
in the way it is meant to be.
(who'd have 'em)
look about this house and see, such devastation
How can three kids make such a mess, and leave it
with no care.
There's dried jelly on the carpet, there's cake
upon the light,
The walls look as if they've had a paint and crayon
pizza in the bathroom and marmite in the tea
How does it get in such a mess, can YOU explain to
The toys have all exploded, bits sprayed all around
kitchen chairs are now a den, my jacket, makes the
bathroom ain't much better, the shampoo's near all
toothpaste drips out from the tube, I daren't
wonder where it went.
Towels thrown down upon the floor, dirty clothes
lay there in heaps,
I've just espied my make-up bag, haven't seen it
now for weeks.
same story is in the bedrooms, clothes both dirty
dropped and left all o'er the deck where a carpet
once was seen.
Chests of drawers gape open, empty drawers lay on
Will they ever begin to understand what these
useful things are for.
lesson I'll have to teach them, I'll take
no clothes will they have to wear, no toys with
which to play.
My mind is set upon this plan, to the rules they
will be bound,
no more havoc or chaos, shall within this house be
now, plucking up the courage, to relate this to my
struggling over mounds of junk, the words hanging
on my tongue.
I've got to tell them straight away, so that first
thing in the morn.
they can put this room to rights, this disorder
then to scorn.
the anger raging within me, off up the stairs I
beyond the door I see them, sleeping peacefully in
These gentle little angels, three bundles of
no one in their rightful mind, could be cross with
while they're gently sleeping, I'll just clear the
lounge and stairs,
maybe do the kitchen and then the bicycle
So I will leave it until tomorrow, to tell of my
allowing sleep to take these cherubs,
these wonderful kids of mine.
WE MEET AGAIN
day that I first met you,
there was something in your eyes
which held my full attention,
As if I had won first prize.
didn't know quite what it was,
that made my heart just melt,
but a pounding started in my chest,
and the strangest things I felt.
insides turned to jelly,
my head began to whirl,
butterflies tickled my tummy,
and my toes began to curl.
voice was smooth as silk,
your hair shone in the sun,
your eyes sparkled like a diamond
when the polishing was done.
slipped your arms around my waist,
you whispered in my ear,
Those words will never leave me,
I still hear them loud and clear.
spoke of how you loved me,
you spoke such words of charm,
I knew that being close to you
would never do me harm.
that was many years ago,
how long I can't recall
Many hurdles we have seen go by,
now seem so very small.
stand here now and watch you lay
so cold and yet so still,
remembering all the things we did,
Our dreams, we did fulfill.
life together was so good,
and now you have to go,
you have meant so much more to me
than you will ever know.
didn't have the chance last night
to say goodbye to you,
You slipped away so quietly,
you were gone before I knew.
one day soon my darling man,
we once again shall meet,
and I shall lay right by your side,
flowers blooming at our feet.
until that day when I can join
you lying there in peace,
The love we had shall still live on,
for that will never cease.
can feel you swell inside of me
your small and powerless form,
so dependent on the care i give,
to keep you from all harm.
the womb's great haven
perfect peace and care abound,
my love engulfs your fragile soul
your being to surround
small and tender life so pure
so gently you perform.
so helpless, warm and unaware
of life's forthcoming storm.
take your time, and gently sleep
and grow in love, secure,
Be safe while you develop there
far from this life impure.
one day soon, you will emerge
to face this world's disdain,
So rest awhile and gently sleep
your presence from here abstain.
you think I wouldn't notice
the lipstick on your shirt,
Did her perfume spill upon the floor
where you thought it wouldn't hurt
present to you of that watch
did you think I wouldn't see
did you really think you could pass it off
as the one that came from me.
you think that all those late hours
that you came home at night
That I would fall for all your lies
did you really think I might.
tickets in your pockets
for the concerts and hotel
was I really supposed not to notice
how our bank balance fell.
earring on the carpet floor
we know it wasn't mine,
The soft kid glove lay in the car,
with stitching, oh so fine.
many things and tell tale signs
how careless can you be,
to just pretend I imagine things
or think that I don't see.
you really just that thoughtless
or don't you care at all
You never used to be like that with me
as far as I recall.
has happened to you,
do you just not love me now,
Do I no longer excite you
Does it matter anyhow.
you come home tonight,
there will not be a sound,
the house will be so empty,
Because I won't be around.
lay so weak and poorly there,
barely her chest did rise and fall,
Her 'pock-marked' face, her tousled hair,
she lay so frail and small.
ill she lay, and I alone,
would hear her wimpering fight,
once more, troubled sleep she would find,
as I held her through the night.
dawn drew near, the sun did rise,
the sky brought forth the day,
my eyes, so dull, from watching her
little face, so pale and gray.
tiny flicker from her eyes,
her arms, twitched on the sheet,
her little voice so weakly cried
'Mummy... I want something to eat'.
eyes opened wide to stare
at the glittering spectacle before them there.
Shiny round baubles, tinsel so bright,
with twinkling lights shining into the
and glistening for all their worth
such a beautiful sight upon this earth
The magic of Christmas hung in the air
catching the breath of ev'ry one there
held in awe at that wonderous sight
the bewitching horizon so festive and bright.
Packages large, and packages small
there's a parcel labelled for one and
greetings tripped from every tongue,
the spectre of Christmas had all but begun.
The table bearing such incredulous fare
undreamt delicacies, not a space left
the chattering and babbling of Christmas began
Jubilant sounds as the fiesta went to plan.
Happiness, through that glacial portal, I saw
nose squashed to the glass, I stayed there in
could barely drag my bulging eyes away,
wishing and praying, that there I could stay.
Such amazing beauty ne'er before had I seen,
none of them realize that there I had
grudgingly, drawing away
that spectre of magic, in my mind was to stay.
I picked up my bundle, placed my bed in its
slouched off down the lane, ne'er to look
the road is my home, my own lonely world,
frosted ditches and hills around me unfurled.
None will e'er know that I'd been there that
to share in that beautiful, wonderous
I lay here in my bed, I dare not open my eyes,
I know they're out to get me, I know how hard they
this devil's house fills me with fear, its risks so
clear to see,
how can I escape and save my soul, before they get
day is full of horror, to that kitchen I dare not
lurking, skulking in the sink, they, on the
Those dishes are out to catch me, they're hiding in
I know that they conceal themselves, ready to give
I pass by the laundry room, that washer growls out
I'm sure it's gonna get me soon, oh help, please
hear my plea.
It's twirling eye stares through that tomb, o'er
dirty mounds of clothes
whirring, whizzing its angry sounds, hot steam
through pipes it blows.
vacuum, slowly slithers out, from underneath the
slowly, tardily, gathering speed, wrapping wire
around the chairs.
Dust clouds, belching from behind, it's angry roar
coming closer, closer, closer still, I know it's
I hide, wherever I go, I can hear their furious
I can hear them calling around the house, their
menace does abound.
So hiding here beneath my sheets, this day I cannot
I know if I should e'er give in, I'll become a
DAY AT A TIME
have to take control again of this wretched life of
this sickness, here inside of me, made alcohol my
One day at a time, is what it takes, to free me of
and take me away from my life, that's now so
greater power, is out there, to take heed of my
and I offer myself unto His care, help return my
Searching deep within myself, my soul's inventory
to fearlessly admit my faults, their morals to
one day at a time is what I'll take, to slowly
tread that path
onward to the next great step, to avert this
I admit to myself and all around, confess where
I've gone wrong
these faults that lie within me, no more do they
one day at a time, as I trudge along that rocky
I do my best to stay in line with this, my new
In time I will be ready to humbly ask and pray,
my shortcomings and my failures, ask Him to take
addiction to this evil, to many I have caused
and to them all, shall make amend, and vow ne'er to
But just one day at a time, I know, is all that I
to make this day free from drink, I'll try, to
myself I swear.
keep on trying , oh so hard, and admit when I go
from keeping to this narrow path, that will last my
whole life long.
I will pray for guidance from Him, and for His
strength to carry on,
to help me just one day at a time, from dawn until
as I travel along this road, my eyes open wider as
to others I'll pass this message, and to them I
how we all can help each other on that long and
and taking life all so gently, taking, just one day
at a time.
MEANT TO BE THIS WAY
No! he's coming home now,
what is there left undone,
I daren't leave the kids' toys
lying out there in the sun.
just go mad at me again,
I know he'll have his say,
there is never any pleasing him,
it goes on day by day.
dinner's on the table,
his paper's folded neat,
oh God, is that a cat's hair
I can see upon his seat.
life just isn't worth living,
he gives me such a fright.
Everything I do, to him,
will never turn out right.
I really that bad at things,
does this house look such a mess
as he tells me that is does,
I can't tell, I must confess.
shouting at me now,
he says his dinner's cold,
but it's steaming, I can see it,
the plate I can barely hold.
clean the mess from the floor
and as he storms out of the house,
he screams that I have missed a bit,
and that I'm a useless spouse.
God, don't let him back here,
I can hardly stand any more,
I don't know what he wants from me,
am I his wife or just his whore.
can't bear for him to touch me,
as he pleasures himself this way,
my head is screaming 'let me be',
I can't stand another day.
me sleep and never wake,
this life I cannot stand,
when I made my vows, this ain't the way
my future I had planned.
wind may howl, the rain may pour,
the snow lay thick on the ground
but here, within our cottage retreat,
our piece of heaven, we've found.
oaken door, so firm and stout,
closing out the world so cold,
here within our paradise fine
happiness we cannot withhold.
warm and safe within these walls
our love and dreams abound,
The dreamy nights are ours to share
soft and gentle as melodies sound,
flickers across the room
with the shadows to gently play,
dancing and flashing along the walls
keeping the darkness at bay.
log fire crackles, so bright and warm,
exploding fireflies into the glare
wisps of smoke up the chimney,
creep to seek out the cold night air.
we, snuggled close, upon the rug,
our arms and bodies entwined,
to languish in our love complete,
our hearts and souls combined.
warm and lovely feeling,
so deep inside me grows
with every time I talk to you,
my spirit simply glows.
gentle tone of your voice,
your accent soft and calm,
I long to be there by your side,
to languish in your arms.
time, your voice I hear,
I mellow to the sound
feeling ever closer
then my heart begins to pound.
is this powerful spell
that you cast upon my soul,
It would seem my total life
is under your control.
to this felicitatious dream
And hope reality, slender,
Will enter to this scheme,
time and distance 'tween us,
this union won't allow
One day, my dear, we shall meet
To you I make this vow.
to your tender charms,
praying no more to part,
I shall offer my open arms
So you receive my heart.
many ways is it possible
to tell you 'I love you'
That it's everything about you
and everything you do
many ways can I let you know
within me, you start a fire
that burns so bright, you really are
my heart's one burning desire.
can I explain the way I feel
to let you understand,
that yearning that's deep inside me,
my love's at your command.
can I enlighten you,
of the craving that I perceive
that only your love given in return
is able to relieve.
can I tell you that from the first,
my passion was born then grew.
But I know for sure, I need not explain
'cause I know...you love me too.
lay quite still upon the mat, it fluttered through
not wanting yet to touch it, as it lay there on the
I knew the words it contained, words so clear and
telling me my broken heart would still be full of
that I don't want to face, I fear what lay
frightened just of touching it, I would open it
We had argued, just last night, I gave you back
you told me the affair was over, it had only been a
could you do it to me, and break my heart this
you begged me to forgive you, no longer you would
How can I believe it won't recur, how can I trust
not to break my heart a second time, this I can't
I know that you still want her, and I am second
No, I will not take you back, to again my heart
My life will take a back seat, and to you I'll not
to forgive the hurt you caused, and allow my heart
DAY YOU DIED
day I come to visit, as you lay so peaceful
knowing that your soul's at rest, with freedom from
It makes no sense in this world, for it's here you
should have stayed,
that car headed straight for you, did it have to
end this way?
senseless slaughter of you, this destroyer of your
you left, two weeks, before the day that I would be
But now you're taken from me, they've put you in
How is it that your precious life, they could not
help to save.
dress hangs in the wardrobe, for the day we should
my heart filling with regret, as approaching that
day, I dread.
For we will not stand side by side, exchanging vows
instead you'll be looking down from heavenly skies
love will always be true to you, from this day till
until that time, here by your grave, my whole life
I will spend.
But on that day, I'll make my vows, and sit here
bye your side,
knowing that forever more, I'll curse the day you
coffin lay there so forboding,
I wanted to turn round and run
a steady hand to my shoulder placed
afore my blossoming fear had won.
pictures hung silent on the walls
a stillness clung to the air
the scent of death was all around
the fire grate lay cold and bare.
chilled, the room, in deathly hush,
feet shuffling across the floor,
were the only sounds that could be heard
morbid silence could not ignore.
gentle nudge to me from behind
urged me closer toward that casket
a great doubt formed within my mind
wanting to leave, but couldn't ask it
dutifully, edging close
to that ghoulish box of pine
pure white satin peeped o'er the edge
revealing its contents divine.
my eyes displayed to me
a serene angel so full of grace
so peacefully lying, her skin so pure,
no single hair fell from place
angel was my own sweet Mum
the creator of my whole,
her purpose upon this mortal earth
my life hers to extol
peaceful calm came over me
her lying there did I espy
my fingers crept up to her cheek
'I love you Mum, Goodbye'
I sit alone, I hear the cry
of a far off sea-bird, way up high.
The sky is blue, the day is clear.
No-one comes around, no-one comes near.
I stand, I walk the beach,
I try to find something out of reach,
The burden I carry, I carry alone,
pick and fondle a small round stone.
stone is lucky, it feels no pain,
It just is worn by wind and rain.
The birds are free and are so shy,
I just sit alone and cry.
where to hide, no where to run
My load is heavy, I see no sun
No one to love, I see no hope,
Through the years of life, I beg and
one day, I hope to see
that life will turn out good for me.
For this I will always hope and pray,
that I may see the sun one day.
me, love will come, one day, it should
and see this loneliness gone, for good.
But until to me, that day is shown,
I'll sit and walk and cry, alone.
20 years ago, my Dear
when we were both still young,
we lived our lives as we thought best,
dreaming dreams as yet unsung.
loves we had, we both agree,
that did not turn out right,
The tears that fell, the heartaches too.
The sadness of life's own plight.
much we have suffered along the way,
treading life's path with care,
Wishing and praying that time would mend
love's twisted course repair.
each have had our sorrows,
our heartaches and our pain,
the loves we've had through teenage years
that drove us both insane,
paths we've trod and things we've done,
some not without regret,
wasting many years on mistaken dreams
our futures seemed quite set,
corner turned we would face
new challenges to our heart,
to tug upon the strings so fine
our submission to impart.
gave our all, and we fought on,
and to our vows stayed true,
But times do change, and new light brought
the signs of life anew.
known you just a short time now,
but so clearly it does show
an appeasing life we would have known
had we met....20 years ago.
ON THE WALL
silently upon the wall
My life in pictures is revealed to all.
Frames full of memories for all to see,
But every one is so special to me.
face of a schoolgirl hanging there,
With sparkling eyes, long brown hair.
A time when teenage years were cast,
Remembering times long gone past.
of my family and happy years,
Faces of sorrow, and crying of tears.
Pictures of my children each year they grew,
Placing each frame alongside the new.
the walls they hang, my memories to keep,
My life's journey in pictures and shall never
A journey that keeps growing from picture to
No likeness displayed there, could be the
story it relates, to those whom they see
Those pictures and frames tell the story of me,
In bedrooms lounge, from the door to the hall.
My life hangs in pictures upon my wall
often I sit here and ponder, on times long gone
Things I've seen in my life, those memories there
I remember sitting by an open fire, no TV there to
A radio was all that we had, my family and
recall those summer days, spending time upon the
The hours of fun that we all had, till end of day
I remember walks out in the forest where deer could
oft be seen,
Watching rabbits and finding footprints where once
a fox had been.
frosty nights and frozen morns, to find on the
The icicles that hung there dripping, as they
melted once again.
Watching through the window, as a storm would pass
to see the blackened clouds, as they'd drift across
remember the feel of calm when the wind outside had
The fluffy clouds pure white and clean, on the
horizon there espied.
I remember the day I brought you home, my family
first to meet,
How you tripped and blushed so red, as you went to
take a seat.
day that you proposed to me, how clearly I
a joy that rose within my heart, as you stood proud
I remember, on our wedding day, how much my mother
Happy tears coursed down her face, no makeup could
remember the day I told you, that parents we would
The look of love upon your face, I still can
And on the day our son was born, you were there by
Your heart filled with such joy, your chest puffed
out with pride.
as he grew, first steps he took, a bike then
learned to ride,
The falls, grazed knees, and broken limbs, he took
all in his stride.
The day he went to college, still lives on in my
So grand he looked and I so proud, the world for
him to see.
remember the day the doctor called to say that you
That only a short time we could expect to be
That day that we buried you, and lay you here to
Memories all came flooding back, I knew my life was
many memories that I recall of happy times and
The things we've shared between us, of all the
times we've had.
By sitting here, and all alone, looking back into
Is the only way that I know to make those happy
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