To The Ladies
my friends who sent good wishes, since my poem,
Ladies Be Aware,
There is more, if you'll permit me, which, with you
I'd like to share.
My visit to the Hospital, was not all that I had
So from that morning that I went, I like to tell
you how I've coped.
morning, off I went, my appointment there to
No long wait, no time to think, barely time to take
Preparing myself for what had to come, I knew it
To have your 'bits' squashed quite flat in an
over, they then decided, not liking what they
Further tests they would do, to try to find out
An ultrasonic scan they did, and showed me with
So I could see upon that screen, the problem that
concerned they became, and more tests they would
Take some samples; send away, 10days before they
Knew for sure what the lump was, 10 days of Hell
10 days of worrying, not just on my own, but also
sent me to the Support Nurse, who explained in
What was sure to happen soon. I know I went quite
Although it was not certain, that the lump was the
The Doc's experience said a lot, and was as sure as
he could be.
kept a smile upon my face, bade farewell, then
How I ever managed to get there, I will never
That afternoon passed on by, completely in a
I can't remember during that time what really did
emotions were running wild; my thoughts had just
Sheer panic had set into my head, thoughts of all
I'm a single Mum with children, how will they cope
if I am ill?
How will my obligations as a mum, to them now
emotion then struck me, I felt dirty, and
My body has been invaded by something alien and
I was feeling like a leper, I should have a bell to
to warn each and everyone around, of this horrid
next thing I felt was pure anger, I just really
After all in life I've gone through, why this? Why
now? WHY ME???
The days went on and through the night, sleep
seemed so far away,
Tossing, turning, and nightmare dreams, all came
was then that I realised, that for me to see this
I had to talk to others, to other people who really
I couldn't keep it bottled up, and secrete it all
I needed to let it all out again, not a thing I
dared to hide.
friends are so supportive, a great shoulder they
are to me,
And with talking to so many, they have made me
Positive thoughts I need to have, I have to push
Not to think upon that 'dark-side', not once, not
shock has now subsided, and I accept the
I have this thing that I don't want, growing inside
In the Doctors I'll place my trust, to their hands
I'll place my care,
I'll not fret about what 'might' be, and just deal
with what is 'there'.
has really made me realise, that I am definitely
So many others have had the same, such strength
they have shown.
I'll stay positive through this ordeal, that into
my life was cast,
When it's all over and done with, then I can put it
in my past.
may lie in front of me, all the hills I'll need to
I know that I can cope with it, even though it may
I know that whatever happens, I know it'll turn out
What I am most thankful for, thank God, I checked
myself that night.